So I know I haven't posted in forever...I have had alot of things I wanted to post...but just couldn't find the time...there was so much I wanted to get done before school started today!
Anway...I decided to post because I had a horrible day...today and well even yesterday weren't the best.
So I wake up this morning to practically a blizzard in my front yard! Ok thats a little dramatic but it was snowing and had been for a while! I was like great...this will be fun trying to get to Warrensburg in! So it all started with almost being late for my first class ever at UCM because I had to drive so slow because of the snow! Luckily I got a good parking spot...kinda forgot about that until now...I guess that was one good thing. So then I am walking to class right and almost fell like twice...and I get into the building when I notice I am missing my access code for my first class. I walk back outside...retrace my steps all the way back to my car...even though I was already running late..and guess what no luck! I am sure someone picked it up. I talked to my mom and I guess I am going to try to call the bookstore and see if there is anything I can do about it like if someone tried to return it or something...maybe it has like a unique code that they can identify with my reciept because I still have it.
So then I finally get to class and I am the last one there...oh well whatev I wasn't late...had like 1 minute to spare! So then I can't get logged onto the computer....the teacher had helped some people get on and I was about to ask for her help when she was like ok class its time to begin. She looks at her screen which shows all of our screens...and is like ok who isn't logged in. So I had to raise my hand in front of the entire class! Anyway she finally got me logged in and the rest of the class went pretty well. She had a little exercise to see how much we already knew about Microsoft Excel...luckily I knew pretty much all of it and I noticed that alot of the students in the class didn't seem to know how to do it...so I guess thats a good sign...hopefully I will do well in the class.
So anyways class got out about 20 minutes early...I get out and check my phone and I have a text message from a friend that says campus closes at 3 and classes are cancelled...so I decided to go over to her house and hangout for a bit while I was in town. So on my way leaving campus I come to a stoplight where I am turning right and luckily the light was green because I just slid all the way around the corner! Then on my way back home from my friends house I am turning left off 7 onto C and first of all that is a bad corner anyway and add the snow its horrible! I slid all over and my heart was racing...I totally thought I was going in the ditch and the one there is a huge drop off. Luckily I stayed calm didn't slam on the brakes and after swerving a bit finally got control of the car again...and went extra slow the rest of the way home! (I was already going slow...lol.) C Hwy didn't look like it had been plowed like at all...it was horrible!
So I get home and explain my day to my mother and when I was about to leave to go back to my house she was like oh I got you something maybe this will make your day better...and she hands me my favorite candy bar...Milky Way Simply Caramel! =) It helped a little but I am still upset about my day...and guess what...that wasn't the end of it!
Its still snowing! And they called off school at Windsor tomorrow! It was supposed to be my first subbing job...I was sooooo excited! I was subbing for Preschool...and not only did I want to sub...I really need to! I am so broke right now...and I am probably going to have to buy another one of those codes and also I just found out that there is a book that I am supposed to have for my Bus Stats class...the guy in the book store said I didn't need one...even when I specifically asked are you sure because when I looked online I thought it said I needed one. Ugh...I am so annoyed!
So about yesterday...well its not really that bad compared to my day today...but I was really upset last night. This guy made me mad and then I felt crappy all night. I felt so stupid. A friend and I went to hangout with him, and well he knows that I kinda like him and he acted like he kinda likes me...but then the whole night he was hitting on both of us. Then yesterday I was texting him and all of a sudden he stopped texting me...so okay he's busy whatever. No...then he freakin texts my friend...first of all we don't know how he got her number...he must have taken it out of one of our phones when we were in the bathroom or something...idk! Anyway it just really pissed me off and I felt stupid for trusting him and even talking to him after he made me mad like a month ago! I know he's not worth it and he's not "the One" for me but it still hurt. Its really hard that everyone around me is getting engaged or married or having children...and I am nowhere near that. I mean I wanna get through school before settling down anyway...but still...you know...
Anyway...the message at church really spoke to me while all this was happening...Cliff was teaching on refocusing and living in the world without being of the world. I would definately say that this is something I am personally struggling with. Its really hard not to be pulled into all these things and get caught up with the drama. And as me and my friend were crying on the way back home...I was thinking about who my true friends are. I kept thinking about all the fights I get into with my friends and just all the drama...and then it hit me that that doesn't really happen with my church friends. I couldn't recall one time that I got in a fight with one of my fellow brothers or sisters in Christ...besides the little disagreements that are bound to happen with anyone...all the big fights were because of secular worldly things. I had a flashback moment of some get togethers with church friends and couldn't recall anyone getting in a fight or argument really or at least something that didn't get worked out right then...whenever I am with a group of people from my highschool or places near my hometown...there is always drama and fights...whether I am personally involved in them or not. I hadn't really thought about that...at least not recently...I was caught up in all the drama and all the crap that is going on in my life. And I have still been praying all the time and going to church when I can...but besides that I haven't really been focused on Him. Everything works out so much better when He is in control and He is there. I need to remind myself that He needs to come first in my life and that if he is in control...things will work out and everything will get better...maybe not without some more struggles...but it will! Please keep me in your prayers!
