Venting

So as you can tell by the title...I really just need to vent...so what better place to do it than here, right?!  So here goes...

So I have been talking to this guy for like 2 weeks...we talked everyday, like all day, and we hung out twice...just chilled and watched movies in his dorm room.  The second time we hung out he asked if I wanted a relationship and I said idk...I think it made him a little mad, but I didn't want to rush into anything and I told him from the beginning I wanted to take things slow.  The last time I rushed into a relationship, I ended up breaking up with the guy a week later...I didn't want that to happen again. Then yesterday he won't text me back all day!  I was like something is up...this is really weird.  So I am like freaking out all day right...but I go to bed hoping that maybe he was just busy and I would talk to him today. 

So I wake up to a text message from Facebook...his status...that reads:  Kim.  I was all wth?! Seriously?!  So I text him and was all if you didn't want to talk to me anymore, you should have told me...real mature to just ignore me and then post some other girls name on Facebook! 

I was so pissed, but then again upset and hurt.  I didn't realize how much I actually cared about him...its weird and stupid ik, but I really liked him.  I hate that I bragged to all my friends about how nice he was...he sure fooled me!  Everyone would be like is he hott?  And I would be like well no not really, but he's really sweet!  Yea ok...nice acting...of course his major is Political Science...so I guess he has the acting and lying down pat! 

So I was crying all morning...but I had to pull it together because I was driving to Osage Beach for Church! =)  I was so glad to be there!  It was great to be around all the people that really love and care about me!  I was praying all morning and was just so thankful that God was there for me when noone else really was!  My friends at Church asked how I was and I said okay...trying to be strong and not let on how much I was hurting...I hate that I feel this way...but I can't help it!  Of course one person who knows me too well saw right through me and noticed how sad I was.  I have to keep telling myself that it wasn't meant to be and that God has a plan for me!  I am so glad that he stopped this before it got serious...that would have hurt even worse! 

It was so hard to sing the worship songs as I was fighting back tears...not only for the pain I was trying to let go of...but also for the joy of everything he has and will do for me!  He is an amazing God and he really spoke to me today!  I love him so much...and I know that whatever I am going through, he is always there for me!  When I can't get ahold of my best friend when I really need to because she is hunting lol, I can turn to him and tell him everything!  He is the one relationship I can rely on...to never go wrong and to never end! 

Ok...well I could go on and on about my feelings and the Lord...but I really need to get some sleep!  Gotta get up early for my meeting at UCM...hopefully to sign up for classes next semester!  Wish me Luck! =) And Please be praying for me!    -Later!