Ok, so its been awhile since I have been on here...and alot has happened since! Last time I was on here, I was talking about my first day of school at UCM and how my life was probably at one of the lowest points possible! No job, no money, and school not going as planned!
However, as my title states, things are now looking up! =) I have been substitute teaching every once in awhile and am absolutely loving it! The kids are great and it is just really enjoyable...just FUN! And I get paid for it! I am also doing a little bit of Marketing work for my dad! And Summer is only a month away! Then I will be at the lake working fulltime again at Al Elam! =) I am extremely excited! I will hopefully be staying with two Amazing Friends!!! I can't wait to get back to church, see all my friends down there, and get back to work! Its been too long...and I have been sooo bored!
I am finally not completely broke! I got an awesome tax return....one thousand dollars! That should hold me over until I get back to work in a month! I was getting tired of having to ask my mother for gas money to be able to make it to school.
In the relationship department, I am still single. Since my last post, I was involved in my longest relationship that lasted all of a month. He was a really sweet guy, but not the one for me! I prayed about it a lot and decided to end it before I led him on too much. He was really starting to get on my nerves and I was just extremely frustrated and stressed all the time...not what I needed...especially at that time in my life. So now its just me again...and I am loving being Single!!! I want to get through school and into my career before settling down and starting a family. That is unless God has other plans for me! =)
I can't wait to start taking more classes for school...this summer I am planning on taking 3 summer courses online to get caught back up from only being able to take 1 course this semester! I am also totally looking forward to the IBE program next fall! Registration is in about a week...and I am getting up early to sign up as soon as registration is open!
On another note, I am getting ready to meet with the international office here in the next week or two! I will soon be applying to study abroad at the European Business School located in Germany!!! =) Please be praying for me about this...I am extremely excited! I had an amazing experience in Europe last Spring and have been dying to go back ever since! I think studying overseas would be an amazing opportunity!
So that's what is going on in my life right now...I'm ready for the summer and am so glad that God is working everything out in my life!!! =)
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Monday, January 10, 2011
Bad Day
So I know I haven't posted in forever...I have had alot of things I wanted to post...but just couldn't find the time...there was so much I wanted to get done before school started today!
Anway...I decided to post because I had a horrible day...today and well even yesterday weren't the best.
So I wake up this morning to practically a blizzard in my front yard! Ok thats a little dramatic but it was snowing and had been for a while! I was like great...this will be fun trying to get to Warrensburg in! So it all started with almost being late for my first class ever at UCM because I had to drive so slow because of the snow! Luckily I got a good parking spot...kinda forgot about that until now...I guess that was one good thing. So then I am walking to class right and almost fell like twice...and I get into the building when I notice I am missing my access code for my first class. I walk back outside...retrace my steps all the way back to my car...even though I was already running late..and guess what no luck! I am sure someone picked it up. I talked to my mom and I guess I am going to try to call the bookstore and see if there is anything I can do about it like if someone tried to return it or something...maybe it has like a unique code that they can identify with my reciept because I still have it.
So then I finally get to class and I am the last one there...oh well whatev I wasn't late...had like 1 minute to spare! So then I can't get logged onto the computer....the teacher had helped some people get on and I was about to ask for her help when she was like ok class its time to begin. She looks at her screen which shows all of our screens...and is like ok who isn't logged in. So I had to raise my hand in front of the entire class! Anyway she finally got me logged in and the rest of the class went pretty well. She had a little exercise to see how much we already knew about Microsoft Excel...luckily I knew pretty much all of it and I noticed that alot of the students in the class didn't seem to know how to do it...so I guess thats a good sign...hopefully I will do well in the class.
So anyways class got out about 20 minutes early...I get out and check my phone and I have a text message from a friend that says campus closes at 3 and classes are cancelled...so I decided to go over to her house and hangout for a bit while I was in town. So on my way leaving campus I come to a stoplight where I am turning right and luckily the light was green because I just slid all the way around the corner! Then on my way back home from my friends house I am turning left off 7 onto C and first of all that is a bad corner anyway and add the snow its horrible! I slid all over and my heart was racing...I totally thought I was going in the ditch and the one there is a huge drop off. Luckily I stayed calm didn't slam on the brakes and after swerving a bit finally got control of the car again...and went extra slow the rest of the way home! (I was already going slow...lol.) C Hwy didn't look like it had been plowed like at all...it was horrible!
So I get home and explain my day to my mother and when I was about to leave to go back to my house she was like oh I got you something maybe this will make your day better...and she hands me my favorite candy bar...Milky Way Simply Caramel! =) It helped a little but I am still upset about my day...and guess what...that wasn't the end of it!
Its still snowing! And they called off school at Windsor tomorrow! It was supposed to be my first subbing job...I was sooooo excited! I was subbing for Preschool...and not only did I want to sub...I really need to! I am so broke right now...and I am probably going to have to buy another one of those codes and also I just found out that there is a book that I am supposed to have for my Bus Stats class...the guy in the book store said I didn't need one...even when I specifically asked are you sure because when I looked online I thought it said I needed one. Ugh...I am so annoyed!
So about yesterday...well its not really that bad compared to my day today...but I was really upset last night. This guy made me mad and then I felt crappy all night. I felt so stupid. A friend and I went to hangout with him, and well he knows that I kinda like him and he acted like he kinda likes me...but then the whole night he was hitting on both of us. Then yesterday I was texting him and all of a sudden he stopped texting me...so okay he's busy whatever. No...then he freakin texts my friend...first of all we don't know how he got her number...he must have taken it out of one of our phones when we were in the bathroom or something...idk! Anyway it just really pissed me off and I felt stupid for trusting him and even talking to him after he made me mad like a month ago! I know he's not worth it and he's not "the One" for me but it still hurt. Its really hard that everyone around me is getting engaged or married or having children...and I am nowhere near that. I mean I wanna get through school before settling down anyway...but still...you know...
Anyway...the message at church really spoke to me while all this was happening...Cliff was teaching on refocusing and living in the world without being of the world. I would definately say that this is something I am personally struggling with. Its really hard not to be pulled into all these things and get caught up with the drama. And as me and my friend were crying on the way back home...I was thinking about who my true friends are. I kept thinking about all the fights I get into with my friends and just all the drama...and then it hit me that that doesn't really happen with my church friends. I couldn't recall one time that I got in a fight with one of my fellow brothers or sisters in Christ...besides the little disagreements that are bound to happen with anyone...all the big fights were because of secular worldly things. I had a flashback moment of some get togethers with church friends and couldn't recall anyone getting in a fight or argument really or at least something that didn't get worked out right then...whenever I am with a group of people from my highschool or places near my hometown...there is always drama and fights...whether I am personally involved in them or not. I hadn't really thought about that...at least not recently...I was caught up in all the drama and all the crap that is going on in my life. And I have still been praying all the time and going to church when I can...but besides that I haven't really been focused on Him. Everything works out so much better when He is in control and He is there. I need to remind myself that He needs to come first in my life and that if he is in control...things will work out and everything will get better...maybe not without some more struggles...but it will! Please keep me in your prayers!
Anway...I decided to post because I had a horrible day...today and well even yesterday weren't the best.
So I wake up this morning to practically a blizzard in my front yard! Ok thats a little dramatic but it was snowing and had been for a while! I was like great...this will be fun trying to get to Warrensburg in! So it all started with almost being late for my first class ever at UCM because I had to drive so slow because of the snow! Luckily I got a good parking spot...kinda forgot about that until now...I guess that was one good thing. So then I am walking to class right and almost fell like twice...and I get into the building when I notice I am missing my access code for my first class. I walk back outside...retrace my steps all the way back to my car...even though I was already running late..and guess what no luck! I am sure someone picked it up. I talked to my mom and I guess I am going to try to call the bookstore and see if there is anything I can do about it like if someone tried to return it or something...maybe it has like a unique code that they can identify with my reciept because I still have it.
So then I finally get to class and I am the last one there...oh well whatev I wasn't late...had like 1 minute to spare! So then I can't get logged onto the computer....the teacher had helped some people get on and I was about to ask for her help when she was like ok class its time to begin. She looks at her screen which shows all of our screens...and is like ok who isn't logged in. So I had to raise my hand in front of the entire class! Anyway she finally got me logged in and the rest of the class went pretty well. She had a little exercise to see how much we already knew about Microsoft Excel...luckily I knew pretty much all of it and I noticed that alot of the students in the class didn't seem to know how to do it...so I guess thats a good sign...hopefully I will do well in the class.
So anyways class got out about 20 minutes early...I get out and check my phone and I have a text message from a friend that says campus closes at 3 and classes are cancelled...so I decided to go over to her house and hangout for a bit while I was in town. So on my way leaving campus I come to a stoplight where I am turning right and luckily the light was green because I just slid all the way around the corner! Then on my way back home from my friends house I am turning left off 7 onto C and first of all that is a bad corner anyway and add the snow its horrible! I slid all over and my heart was racing...I totally thought I was going in the ditch and the one there is a huge drop off. Luckily I stayed calm didn't slam on the brakes and after swerving a bit finally got control of the car again...and went extra slow the rest of the way home! (I was already going slow...lol.) C Hwy didn't look like it had been plowed like at all...it was horrible!
So I get home and explain my day to my mother and when I was about to leave to go back to my house she was like oh I got you something maybe this will make your day better...and she hands me my favorite candy bar...Milky Way Simply Caramel! =) It helped a little but I am still upset about my day...and guess what...that wasn't the end of it!
Its still snowing! And they called off school at Windsor tomorrow! It was supposed to be my first subbing job...I was sooooo excited! I was subbing for Preschool...and not only did I want to sub...I really need to! I am so broke right now...and I am probably going to have to buy another one of those codes and also I just found out that there is a book that I am supposed to have for my Bus Stats class...the guy in the book store said I didn't need one...even when I specifically asked are you sure because when I looked online I thought it said I needed one. Ugh...I am so annoyed!
So about yesterday...well its not really that bad compared to my day today...but I was really upset last night. This guy made me mad and then I felt crappy all night. I felt so stupid. A friend and I went to hangout with him, and well he knows that I kinda like him and he acted like he kinda likes me...but then the whole night he was hitting on both of us. Then yesterday I was texting him and all of a sudden he stopped texting me...so okay he's busy whatever. No...then he freakin texts my friend...first of all we don't know how he got her number...he must have taken it out of one of our phones when we were in the bathroom or something...idk! Anyway it just really pissed me off and I felt stupid for trusting him and even talking to him after he made me mad like a month ago! I know he's not worth it and he's not "the One" for me but it still hurt. Its really hard that everyone around me is getting engaged or married or having children...and I am nowhere near that. I mean I wanna get through school before settling down anyway...but still...you know...
Anyway...the message at church really spoke to me while all this was happening...Cliff was teaching on refocusing and living in the world without being of the world. I would definately say that this is something I am personally struggling with. Its really hard not to be pulled into all these things and get caught up with the drama. And as me and my friend were crying on the way back home...I was thinking about who my true friends are. I kept thinking about all the fights I get into with my friends and just all the drama...and then it hit me that that doesn't really happen with my church friends. I couldn't recall one time that I got in a fight with one of my fellow brothers or sisters in Christ...besides the little disagreements that are bound to happen with anyone...all the big fights were because of secular worldly things. I had a flashback moment of some get togethers with church friends and couldn't recall anyone getting in a fight or argument really or at least something that didn't get worked out right then...whenever I am with a group of people from my highschool or places near my hometown...there is always drama and fights...whether I am personally involved in them or not. I hadn't really thought about that...at least not recently...I was caught up in all the drama and all the crap that is going on in my life. And I have still been praying all the time and going to church when I can...but besides that I haven't really been focused on Him. Everything works out so much better when He is in control and He is there. I need to remind myself that He needs to come first in my life and that if he is in control...things will work out and everything will get better...maybe not without some more struggles...but it will! Please keep me in your prayers!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Lazyness
Remember when you were a little kid and you had like no cares in the world...you could do pretty much whatever you want and your mommy would always be taking care of you. Then you started to get older and you got busier...you always had homework...and sometimes clubs and sports things to do after school. Highschool was crazy busy...and you were trying to fit too many things in. Not only did you have school stuff to worry about but you had a job too!
Once you graduate it doesn't get any easier...harder course work in college and probably more hours at said job. Life always seemed so busy! Not enough time in the day! At least that's the way it was for me...at least until a couple of months ago. I had everything figured out...I knew what I wanted to do with school...I had a great job. I was living at the lake having the time of my life with my friends! Then boom...everything changed...since my job was seasonal, I ran out of work...no more hours. So no more money meant no more living at the lake...plus I had to move back to mom's for school in January anyway. But I miss it like crazy!
Now instead of being this crazy busy person that I am used to being all the time...I have no life! I am the laziest person ever! Today I roll over in bed to look at my phone thinking its around noon...nope its freaking 2 o'clock in the afternoon! I slept till 2....thats just about ridiculous! But what's the point of getting up if there is nothing to do! School's almost over for this semester...all my homework is done; only thing left is one paper my finals next week. You would think I would be happy for a break and yeah I am glad to be done with those classes, but what am I gonna do now! I'm gonna be even more bored and even lazier than I already am!
Its not like I can go out and find something to do...I barely leave the house anymore because I am broke! =( I have tried finding a job, but of course no one hires in the winter because business is slow! I have 2 jobs lined up for January hopefully...but that seems so far away! I am going to go crazy cooped up in this little house all the time! Please be praying for me!
Once you graduate it doesn't get any easier...harder course work in college and probably more hours at said job. Life always seemed so busy! Not enough time in the day! At least that's the way it was for me...at least until a couple of months ago. I had everything figured out...I knew what I wanted to do with school...I had a great job. I was living at the lake having the time of my life with my friends! Then boom...everything changed...since my job was seasonal, I ran out of work...no more hours. So no more money meant no more living at the lake...plus I had to move back to mom's for school in January anyway. But I miss it like crazy!
Now instead of being this crazy busy person that I am used to being all the time...I have no life! I am the laziest person ever! Today I roll over in bed to look at my phone thinking its around noon...nope its freaking 2 o'clock in the afternoon! I slept till 2....thats just about ridiculous! But what's the point of getting up if there is nothing to do! School's almost over for this semester...all my homework is done; only thing left is one paper my finals next week. You would think I would be happy for a break and yeah I am glad to be done with those classes, but what am I gonna do now! I'm gonna be even more bored and even lazier than I already am!
Its not like I can go out and find something to do...I barely leave the house anymore because I am broke! =( I have tried finding a job, but of course no one hires in the winter because business is slow! I have 2 jobs lined up for January hopefully...but that seems so far away! I am going to go crazy cooped up in this little house all the time! Please be praying for me!
Monday, December 6, 2010
Broke
Today is not a good day. I am officially broke and am like freaking out. Not working for a month and a half makes your money disappear fast! Especially when you like shopping as much as I do! I need a job ASAP! I talked to Joel about going back to Sonic, but the way he talked it doesn't look like he needs anyone right now and if I do get any hours there, it probably won't be until January. I got my fingerprints done today...but I can't start subbing until after I graduate in a week and a half...plus thats only if I get a call!
I used to be so responsible with my money and I had a ton in savings. Ever since I used my savings to go to Europe...my savings has been low and I used the money I made at work to pay for all the gas I use traveling between my mom's and the Lake. Looks like I'm going to be seeing alot less of the lake for awhile...alot less of anything really. I don't know what happened...its just gone...
Please be praying for me!
I used to be so responsible with my money and I had a ton in savings. Ever since I used my savings to go to Europe...my savings has been low and I used the money I made at work to pay for all the gas I use traveling between my mom's and the Lake. Looks like I'm going to be seeing alot less of the lake for awhile...alot less of anything really. I don't know what happened...its just gone...
Please be praying for me!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Catching Up
So I haven't posted in forever...so I thought I would let you all know whats been keeping me so busy! =)
First of all, I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I know I did! My Aunt LaLa and Cousins JD and Donnie came to our house for the weekend. We cooked all day Thursday and then had a huge meal with turkey, ham, stuffing, corn, greenbean casserole, rolls, pecan cheesecake, and of course pumpkin pie! Then that night at midnight, I drug my Aunt and JD to Walmart for some Black Friday Shopping! As you know from my previous posts, I kinda have a shopping problem...lol. Anyway we had alot of fun just hanging out for a few days...visiting and eating and playing rockband! We even had a little Christmas one night since we won't all be together for Christmas. My cousin JD stayed over at my house and we stayed up late every night watchin movies, and talking, and laughing like crazy! I wish we got to see them more often...but it was a great visit!
So since then, I have mostly been just been doing homework...I can't wait to graduate from SFCC! Only 2 weeks left...one week of homework and one week of finals! Then its off to UCM! =) So excited! Besides school I haven't done much...went to Osage Beach a few times. I got most of my Christmas shopping done the other day...I am so excited for Christmas...I love giving everyone presents! Yesterday we had a Christmas party for work...it was alot fo fun...we played nines and apples to apples...and ate my dad's homemade pizza! Oh and Lisa's Artichoke Dip was amazing! We also had a gift exchange...most of the gifts were gag gifts...I ended up with these ugly tan crates that I ended up leaving at the church...my good presents got stolen...but my awesome little brother gave me back half of the gift that he stole from me...so that was sweet! =)
Then today me and my friend Shawna went to church and then did a little shopping. I printed off some more pictures from my trip! I can't wait to start scrapbooking during the break! My cricut machine should be in sometime this week! =)
As far as a job goes, I'm still not working...however I talked to Joel yesterday about going back to Sonic...so hopefully I can get in some hours there...but they are always slow during the winter. I also picked up some applications for substitute teaching the other day! =) I have an appointment to get my fingerprints tomorrow! Then as soon as I finish these classes, grades are posted, and I have my degree...I can turn in those applications! =) Very excited!
Well I better get off of here and get some rest for tomorrow! Talk to you all later!
First of all, I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I know I did! My Aunt LaLa and Cousins JD and Donnie came to our house for the weekend. We cooked all day Thursday and then had a huge meal with turkey, ham, stuffing, corn, greenbean casserole, rolls, pecan cheesecake, and of course pumpkin pie! Then that night at midnight, I drug my Aunt and JD to Walmart for some Black Friday Shopping! As you know from my previous posts, I kinda have a shopping problem...lol. Anyway we had alot of fun just hanging out for a few days...visiting and eating and playing rockband! We even had a little Christmas one night since we won't all be together for Christmas. My cousin JD stayed over at my house and we stayed up late every night watchin movies, and talking, and laughing like crazy! I wish we got to see them more often...but it was a great visit!
So since then, I have mostly been just been doing homework...I can't wait to graduate from SFCC! Only 2 weeks left...one week of homework and one week of finals! Then its off to UCM! =) So excited! Besides school I haven't done much...went to Osage Beach a few times. I got most of my Christmas shopping done the other day...I am so excited for Christmas...I love giving everyone presents! Yesterday we had a Christmas party for work...it was alot fo fun...we played nines and apples to apples...and ate my dad's homemade pizza! Oh and Lisa's Artichoke Dip was amazing! We also had a gift exchange...most of the gifts were gag gifts...I ended up with these ugly tan crates that I ended up leaving at the church...my good presents got stolen...but my awesome little brother gave me back half of the gift that he stole from me...so that was sweet! =)
Then today me and my friend Shawna went to church and then did a little shopping. I printed off some more pictures from my trip! I can't wait to start scrapbooking during the break! My cricut machine should be in sometime this week! =)
As far as a job goes, I'm still not working...however I talked to Joel yesterday about going back to Sonic...so hopefully I can get in some hours there...but they are always slow during the winter. I also picked up some applications for substitute teaching the other day! =) I have an appointment to get my fingerprints tomorrow! Then as soon as I finish these classes, grades are posted, and I have my degree...I can turn in those applications! =) Very excited!
Well I better get off of here and get some rest for tomorrow! Talk to you all later!
Monday, November 15, 2010
College Problems
So this morning I had a meeting at UCM to get everything worked out for transferring and to sign up for my classes. However, when I got there, I found out I hadn't been readmitted yet! Luckily my transfer advisor was amazing! She was really nice and knew what she was doing! She was really helpful, unlike pretty much everyone I have worked with at SFCC. She went ahead and met with me that way once I am admitted, I can enroll in classes on my own and just email her with any questions. We talked about what classes I needed to take...and found out that not being admitted was the least of my problems. =(
I was really excited about the IBE program that they offer. However, it is a block that I would have to take next fall...and in order to start taking my Marketing classes, I have to take one of those classes that falls in that block because it is a prerequisite for all the Marketing classes! So its either don't do the IBE or don't go to school full time! =(
I worked so hard at SFCC to get ahead of schedule and graduate in a year and a half...I don't want to get behind at UCM because of this one class! Luckily, my amazing advisor thought of an idea. She emailed one of the division chairs to see if I could take 2 computer classes concurrently...if he allows it, I can go full time and still do the IBE block next fall. So lets cross our fingers that he approves it! Now I just have to wait!
One other problem...which hopefully can be fixed...one of the other classes that is a prerequisite, so I need it this semester...well all 4 of the classes are already full! Hopefully my advisor can work it out and get me into one of them!
Everyone please be praying for me that I can get this all worked out ASAP! Classes start in less than 2 months...so not alot of time to get it all figured out! I am getting so frustrated with school...I am so glad that I will be graduating SFCC next month with my Associates! Yeah!
Ok well I am crazy tired from getting up early for the past several days...so I'm going to bed! Peace!
P.S. I was going to sleep in tomorrow, but for some reason the quiz that is due tomorrow at 8am for Econ says it is past due and won't let me take it...so I emailed my professor, but I need to get up early to see if he emails back and then I need time to acutally take the quiz! This day has just been full of problems! Hopefully tomorrow will be better! =)
I was really excited about the IBE program that they offer. However, it is a block that I would have to take next fall...and in order to start taking my Marketing classes, I have to take one of those classes that falls in that block because it is a prerequisite for all the Marketing classes! So its either don't do the IBE or don't go to school full time! =(
I worked so hard at SFCC to get ahead of schedule and graduate in a year and a half...I don't want to get behind at UCM because of this one class! Luckily, my amazing advisor thought of an idea. She emailed one of the division chairs to see if I could take 2 computer classes concurrently...if he allows it, I can go full time and still do the IBE block next fall. So lets cross our fingers that he approves it! Now I just have to wait!
One other problem...which hopefully can be fixed...one of the other classes that is a prerequisite, so I need it this semester...well all 4 of the classes are already full! Hopefully my advisor can work it out and get me into one of them!
Everyone please be praying for me that I can get this all worked out ASAP! Classes start in less than 2 months...so not alot of time to get it all figured out! I am getting so frustrated with school...I am so glad that I will be graduating SFCC next month with my Associates! Yeah!
Ok well I am crazy tired from getting up early for the past several days...so I'm going to bed! Peace!
P.S. I was going to sleep in tomorrow, but for some reason the quiz that is due tomorrow at 8am for Econ says it is past due and won't let me take it...so I emailed my professor, but I need to get up early to see if he emails back and then I need time to acutally take the quiz! This day has just been full of problems! Hopefully tomorrow will be better! =)
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Venting
So as you can tell by the title...I really just need to vent...so what better place to do it than here, right?! So here goes...
So I have been talking to this guy for like 2 weeks...we talked everyday, like all day, and we hung out twice...just chilled and watched movies in his dorm room. The second time we hung out he asked if I wanted a relationship and I said idk...I think it made him a little mad, but I didn't want to rush into anything and I told him from the beginning I wanted to take things slow. The last time I rushed into a relationship, I ended up breaking up with the guy a week later...I didn't want that to happen again. Then yesterday he won't text me back all day! I was like something is up...this is really weird. So I am like freaking out all day right...but I go to bed hoping that maybe he was just busy and I would talk to him today.
So I wake up to a text message from Facebook...his status...that reads: Kim. I was all wth?! Seriously?! So I text him and was all if you didn't want to talk to me anymore, you should have told me...real mature to just ignore me and then post some other girls name on Facebook!
I was so pissed, but then again upset and hurt. I didn't realize how much I actually cared about him...its weird and stupid ik, but I really liked him. I hate that I bragged to all my friends about how nice he was...he sure fooled me! Everyone would be like is he hott? And I would be like well no not really, but he's really sweet! Yea ok...nice acting...of course his major is Political Science...so I guess he has the acting and lying down pat!
So I was crying all morning...but I had to pull it together because I was driving to Osage Beach for Church! =) I was so glad to be there! It was great to be around all the people that really love and care about me! I was praying all morning and was just so thankful that God was there for me when noone else really was! My friends at Church asked how I was and I said okay...trying to be strong and not let on how much I was hurting...I hate that I feel this way...but I can't help it! Of course one person who knows me too well saw right through me and noticed how sad I was. I have to keep telling myself that it wasn't meant to be and that God has a plan for me! I am so glad that he stopped this before it got serious...that would have hurt even worse!
It was so hard to sing the worship songs as I was fighting back tears...not only for the pain I was trying to let go of...but also for the joy of everything he has and will do for me! He is an amazing God and he really spoke to me today! I love him so much...and I know that whatever I am going through, he is always there for me! When I can't get ahold of my best friend when I really need to because she is hunting lol, I can turn to him and tell him everything! He is the one relationship I can rely on...to never go wrong and to never end!
Ok...well I could go on and on about my feelings and the Lord...but I really need to get some sleep! Gotta get up early for my meeting at UCM...hopefully to sign up for classes next semester! Wish me Luck! =) And Please be praying for me! -Later!
So I have been talking to this guy for like 2 weeks...we talked everyday, like all day, and we hung out twice...just chilled and watched movies in his dorm room. The second time we hung out he asked if I wanted a relationship and I said idk...I think it made him a little mad, but I didn't want to rush into anything and I told him from the beginning I wanted to take things slow. The last time I rushed into a relationship, I ended up breaking up with the guy a week later...I didn't want that to happen again. Then yesterday he won't text me back all day! I was like something is up...this is really weird. So I am like freaking out all day right...but I go to bed hoping that maybe he was just busy and I would talk to him today.
So I wake up to a text message from Facebook...his status...that reads: Kim. I was all wth?! Seriously?! So I text him and was all if you didn't want to talk to me anymore, you should have told me...real mature to just ignore me and then post some other girls name on Facebook!
I was so pissed, but then again upset and hurt. I didn't realize how much I actually cared about him...its weird and stupid ik, but I really liked him. I hate that I bragged to all my friends about how nice he was...he sure fooled me! Everyone would be like is he hott? And I would be like well no not really, but he's really sweet! Yea ok...nice acting...of course his major is Political Science...so I guess he has the acting and lying down pat!
So I was crying all morning...but I had to pull it together because I was driving to Osage Beach for Church! =) I was so glad to be there! It was great to be around all the people that really love and care about me! I was praying all morning and was just so thankful that God was there for me when noone else really was! My friends at Church asked how I was and I said okay...trying to be strong and not let on how much I was hurting...I hate that I feel this way...but I can't help it! Of course one person who knows me too well saw right through me and noticed how sad I was. I have to keep telling myself that it wasn't meant to be and that God has a plan for me! I am so glad that he stopped this before it got serious...that would have hurt even worse!
It was so hard to sing the worship songs as I was fighting back tears...not only for the pain I was trying to let go of...but also for the joy of everything he has and will do for me! He is an amazing God and he really spoke to me today! I love him so much...and I know that whatever I am going through, he is always there for me! When I can't get ahold of my best friend when I really need to because she is hunting lol, I can turn to him and tell him everything! He is the one relationship I can rely on...to never go wrong and to never end!
Ok...well I could go on and on about my feelings and the Lord...but I really need to get some sleep! Gotta get up early for my meeting at UCM...hopefully to sign up for classes next semester! Wish me Luck! =) And Please be praying for me! -Later!
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